Non-academically-medically equipped, I walked into a world of medicines, surgeries, blood, death, maggots, impatient senior nurses, and admiringly-talented-at-first, but agonizingly-annoying-perfectionist-of a boss (vet) now.
2 months of dreadful, non-systematic, unclear instructions, demoralizing training to becoming a vet assistant, which was stated when I was first interviewed, takes 6 months.
2 months, and my optimism, willingness, integrity to learn, has been crushed to self-doubt. I lost confidence. And I am still struggling within these dark walls to regain my confidence, and not lose myself.
Many of those close to heart has adviced that I quit, and walk out with my integrity still barely intact. But somehow, I feel like there's much to challenge here. Perhaps I can change the system. Even if it is just a little. I am looking for a way.
The other part of me wants to move on & seek a more encouraging environment. Somewhere learning is encouraged.
I haven't been feeling very positive lately, with regards to my well-being at work. I'm contemplating between ignoring the situation as it is and just focus on what I was required to do, or be liberal with my concerns, for my own self-growth & well-being.
I need courage.
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Courage you need; Courage you'll get!
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